The First Day Of Christmas.

What's the true meaning of Christmas? I'm on the search for the true meaning of chrsitmas and I don't know where to look? I remember when I was a child christmas was about toys and clothes and over the years the meaning of christmas has changed into this sad day for me. Well not a sad day just a day where I think about family or the family I wish I had. I grow up in foster care so christmashas been this reminder of a family I lost a long time ago. So what does christmas mean when you have the family or love one to share it with. So this is my first day of christmas where I look for a deeper meaning of chrsitmas. So where should I look? So what does christmas mean to you?  The First Day Of Christmas.