What If.

I feel like am losing any sense of hope. That sense that my life will change, get better. So I'm waiting for something to happen to change. But if I had that chance to be something or make something happen I would. What if I won the lottery? If I won the lottery the first thing I would do is give money to my few friends I have hurt. If I won the lottery I would make me a movie, a million dollar movie. A loft  , brand new car, some work done on my face and body. I would get a bigger penis. Why not, if women can get their breast larger. Why can't I get a bigger penis. I would travel the world for a year. If I won the lottery I would call my real parents and tell them to kiss my natural black ass. I need some real change in my life and the only change I really want is MONEY. Life sucks without cash. What if I won the lottery I would change everything about me. Everything about me would change.  I wouldn't even look like me. If I won the lottery I would change my life and those few friends who I love.