Hoilday's Alone.

I wish I could say I'm sad about not having a love one or children around for the holidays but I'm not. I'm single with no children or a life partner and I'm happy. First let me explain why I'm happy. I'm not working I have no money I'm worried about losing my apartment and work is very slow. Yes it's stressful but just think how stressful it would be if I had other people to think about. I only have myself to worry about and it makes it so easy to get through this rough time. I don't know if its me but being black in Los Angeles is making it very hard to get work. I believe if I was in New York I would have gotten something by now.  Plus it's not like am in my twenties which in Los Angeles is a no , no and I'm not the best looking guy on the block which in Los Angeles is another no, no. I never had these thoughts in New York but here in Los Angeles I do. But at the end f the day I will not let other people problems become my problems.  This is also my doing I'm trying to work in Hollywood I do have several degrees in the arts, so I could get a real job and live out my last days doing a job that I hate instead am trying to live out my dream at this point in my life. So you do what you have to do to make ends meet that are within the law. I would love to be in love someday but right now I want to live the dream. I have no point this RANT. I'm just talking and I'm doubt anyone's listening to the rants of a single man. I do have a feeling this is going to be a great holiday, a holiday I will never forget. I'll keep you posted. Love you.