Looking deep inside yourself.

I had the strangest thing happen last night. I had a co-worker, a  team player in this creative projected that we have been working together make a comment to me about one of the guys being on the down low. All because of his movement. I laughed at first at the silliness of the question and the thought. I wasn't entertained at all, It would have been different if the person was Hallie Berry, or Heidi Klum, I would have still been upset, but it would have been different, because these women don't  come across as Lesbians or  they don't have masculine movement.  I've learned along time go never try to figure out who's gay or straight unless I thought you were hot and I wanted to sleep with you,but this isn't that AT ALL! So I never thought nor cared, but when this person said that then I recalled all the movement this person has done that could be read as gay, a women on the dl.  What makes this even sadder it's black people and it's always the black people that might be gay or ten years from now be with the same sex partner, it's always those blacks who are so quick to judge.  So I got to thinking why are people who carry the same trait so quick to judge others are they not looking deep within their selves.  I wished I would have said this to the person last night, not to be mean but to make a point.  Just when you think you know someone you learn you don't although I should have known this consider early before I met one of the actors, this person informed He's Gay, which I thought does she know him and he's said it to her, but anyone I didn't understand what that had to do with anything, I didn't believe if the person would been white if they would have said that, they would waited for me to met them and if as the director would said something I believe then their concerns would have come out, not shouting ,he's gay. That's like someone saying and he's black.   So when I find myself judging others I ask myself to look deep inside me and I have learned a glass house shouldn't be throwing stones!  As black people life is to hard for us and we don't need to be working against each other, let people live it's not your concern and if they haven't told you, then don't point fingers and for sure don't point fingers if you fit in that same shoe.  The kettle calling the kettle black.  Energy doesn't mean a thing if you aren't connect to the truth of your energy. That thing that you call energy is just a judgement, cause if a black man with strong masculine energy and strong movements step your way you would think he's straight and on the top of that he was always calling someone a faggot and the next minute you and him are HIV POSITIVE so what happen to that energy a woman knows. Yes a woman knows not a little girl. Looking deep inside yourself and find the truth before you point any fingers and once you connect to that place. You want care because it's about letting people live thier lives.
Working on this project is helping me learn to judge other people lives and it's alway helping me with this rage and fear I have for my own people who have brought me so much grief in my life.  Let love move you and leave the judgement at the door and let God move within that space and you'll see your heart will grow and as for black folks lets focus on the things that really matters.