Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Dam I can't figure this out.

Life just seems to keep on moving with you or without you.  I seem to be in this little cross road of my life and I can't figure this shit out. This how I see myself, someone with a strong point of view , a visionary , a artist with lots of passion , but nothing seems to becoming out.  I look into the mirror and I see me looking back, that always worries me, but it's not the me I have in my head.  Dam I can't figure this out! The older I get the wiser I do become, but I still can't figure this shit out. I wanna scream and shout while pulling my own hair out of my head.  I need a body make over, I need a good male trainer to get me into the best shape to turn this body into a body of a Greek God.  Dam I can't figure this out.  I don't wanna be here in Los Angeles anymore, I would like to pick up and leave tomorrow. I have this project to finish and I just wanna get it finish and I want these wonderful actors to look good.  It's a lot of work putting a film together, I couldn't have done it without the help of my co-worker.  This young woman has been really great and she's going to be working in Hollywood someday.  Dam I can't figure out which way to go , to turn, what to look at.  I have this wonderful person in my life that I don't get see alot , but I talk to everyday and they move me to become a better person, a better lover, a better friend and artist. Dam I can't figure this out. but what I do is that people I love are back at home and the people that move me are back at home with a few guy friends here who have taught me a lot about inner love.  But yet I can't figure out what direction to take my life.

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