Facing The Monster.

Sometimes we must find the strength to stand up for ourselves no matter what the cost. For several years I've had this chewing question bitting at my ears. So I decide to ask the question , I decide to step out of my dream state and take charge. Several years ago I had this drug problem which seemed to get in the way of me seeing the truth that lies beneath the surface of every monster. The monster that dresses herself as a kind , warm , loving, soul pretending to walk beside you in this world of madness. But two years later I can say I'm free of the monster that carried me through my life. I understand some and I see people even when I can't sometimes see myself. So what should I do with this miss understanding that I'm having? How do I clear the air so the light can shine? I can no longer be blamed or made to feel I have done anything wrong by asking the question, searching for the truth between all the words. I was so worried that I would lose my choice to leave my dream because If I asked too many questions, I would lose that chance. while I started school in 98 and now it's 2010 and between that time I have seen ideas played out on air and on screen and things disappear in thin air. I've walked through this crazy belief that I wasn't lovaible and Know one cared. Which I know that monster has come and gone. I no longer believe that and I see. I see you and it's just as clear as yesturday. I have faced the monster and monster has been defeated and I can walk with my head help up high, because I'm free to See the truth that lies underneath the surface of the monster.