Less Than Zero.

Do you every feel less than zero?  Like you look at your life and you wonder what's going on.  Nothing seems to be gong the way you plan.  I can't seem to get my life going. In 1998 I decide to go back to college and study film production and it was the best thing ever.  I had been out of high school for several years and I was ready to go back to school.  So I got in and out and right after that I went straight into my master's program. Now I'm getting a certificate in postproduction and nothing seems to be going my way. Don't get me wrong I love school it's going great. Just once again I was trying to get into the dga training program and once again I was turned down.  So I decide to take a look at who's getting in and it seemed to be jewish leaning and not much others.  Which I understand it's hollywood and that means I just need to try harder.  I just wanna work but I understand I need to make it happen. So where do I go from where? So I'm keeping my head up and I'm wishing for the best and putting my best foot forward. That's all I can do, I can't let the negative thoughts get into my way.  I have never been in a relationship and this year I turn 41, it's not that am a bad looking guy or I don't take care of myself, just have a fear of love. Which at times makes me feel less than zero. With the combination of not having a car in Los Angeles,or having this grand place , not having a career or the career I would like to have.  I take better care of myself now. I don't drink or do drugs anymore let's be honest, I stop smoking a month ago nad that's been great. I workout 4 to 5 days week.  But that doesn't keep me from feeling less than zero.  So I'll keep you posted on my career and love life, which I would rather have the career and love can wait. So if your feeling less than zero, remember it's just a moment and it will pass. So keep your head up and smile cause at any moment it will change.