Friday, February 26, 2010

Looking for Candy.

I have a crazy sweet tooth, I think about candy every second of the day or something sweet.   I would rather eat sweets then eat healthy food, but I do eat healthy food because once I eat sweets it's all over. Ok let's take about eating healthy.  I believe if you eat right you can enjoy the sweeter things in life. OK a couple of days ago I kinda got into a disagreement with a friend over old stuff. Something they told me they would take care of it. We made a movie, a short and at that time I trusted them with the project, will they told me they would get it done. Long story short, it don't play out the way it should have been. I was told to man up and it was my felt. I was so upset by this because I just wanted a copy of the project and it became a blame game which that was not on my mind, I just wanted a copy of the short film. I knew when I asked about the short how its was going to turn out. I know I was going to get told not to call them anymore and it was going to be turned on to me.  But it doesn't change that fact that I was hurt. Hurt by the choices I've made, by not paying attention to what was going on in front of me. I  understand that I need to man up to my character, and stop cheating on myself being unfaithful to that oath I took to myself and not to just think about my needs and what I want. Not showing up in a dress when everyone thinks I'm showing up in pants and  not hurting all the little ones around me. Trying to have my cake and eat it too. Not pretending my character is of outstanding material. I like candy it makes me feel good and warm all inside but if I don't take care of myself I could get fat. All that extra weight soon can get to ones head and one starts believing that the madness in their lives are do to other people problems.  So I try not to eat candy all the time because , you see I can't just eat one. 

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