What! The Hell!

Sometimes, I just wish everyone would just shut their pie hole.  Talking heads are every where there is no getting away from all the talking heads.  Everyone seems to have a opinion about nothing, and I mean nothing. So I say 'What the Hell'! I seem to have a problem.  I can't stop listening to all the talking heads, you know what I mean. Ok I love gossip ,right, Hollywood gossip, not the boring gossip of friends or co-workers,I really don't care about them or their lives, so I keep my noise clean when it comes to the boring people in my life. Not that their boring, They stay out of my life and I stay out of their lives. Between watching ET NEWS, CNN, MSNBC, ACCESS HOLLYWOOD, TMZ, COURT TV, it's a wonder I ever leave the house. Ok , Point I'm trying to make is I need a life, but I don't know what kind of life I need. Next month is another birthday, and it's not looking good. I'm looking good, but the birthday isn't looking good. I want their life, you know tv anchors life, report's life. A life working for one of those great gossip news papers. That would a great life doing something that I love. What the hell, but is that really a life. A life I could be proud of? I have a master's in theatre , several certificates in dance, post production, acting, writing from different programs and what do I have to show for it? 200,000 in students loans, WHAT THE HELL!  Making movies is what I really would love to do,but I can't seem to stay focus , it's like I have tripple A.D.D.. So now I'm trying to put this career in order but  I'm finding out it's hard work,'WHAT THE HELL!   Told I was at the gym doing one of the things I love working out and in the middle of running I started counting in my head how much money I had in my account after rent is paid, not much and I said to myself 'WHAT THE HELL'! At my age money shouldn't be a problem, I should be rolling into money, but I'm not.  WHAT THE HELL'! I know one person who seems to be doing good with money, What the hell, where is my money, my life , this really sucks! It's this dam birthady that's got me all crazy. Trying to make sense of this last year and all I can come up with is. 'WHAT THE HELL'!tiyemovietalk.com